Today Sunday few days before i begin my job at Lantoro Hospital, though i have been putting writing on this blog off for sometimes now but here we are so let's go.

Honestly how do i feel about starting a job at Lantoro, well i would say I'm nervous about it, disinterested as well because the pay grade is not something encouraging i would say, but they assured of a good work experience where skills can be learnt but with what i have earned in internship the pay is somewhat a meager, I even talked to a friend about it and he encouraged that if I could survive service year was just barely above 40k then I can as well survive and be fine in my new job. He also said that there are a good number of opportunities that could present itself by working there, i guess that is what I would hold on to and look forward to the experience working there and also the opportunities that would present itself. Spiritually I asked God to show me a way to go about it and he spoke to me and said that I should be learning a skills while I look for something better and that's what I would do, keep working in Lantoro while looking for something bigger and not being lazy and comfortable there so time doesn't waste. Like the saying you can't get time back but you can as well get money back. Time is not like any other thing that you can get back, time lost is time gone. Mummy Adeyemi also told me that while working there I could get a letter of good standing that can be worked out for me and that is also an added advantage of working there. 

Today I attended service at the church beside my house and that was where I met my friend after a long period of time and he accused me of not liking him again but it just that I am not the type to check up on people, rarely know how to keep relationships but I hope I work on that in future and be better as I always strive to be better daily. He preached a wonderful message. I have been sleeping a lot lately as well, sleeping a lot during the day and staying up late in the night. I asked my dad about him giving me one of the laptop but his answer was a straight forward NO and I felt somehow about it but I guess that's how he is and don't blame him because he doesn't like to loose his things. I wanted to ask him about teaching me to drive before but I don't think I would even ask him again before he uses me to shine in front of every body. We men have a big ego I guess that is how we are wired. I have been thinking about my ex lately, I thought I ghosted her but it seems she ghosted me, sometimes I wonder if I ended things right but I guess time would tell. It's just that I needed to be more and I needed enough time for my self to grow, I didn't have that extra time for relationship at that point. My mum always used to advice me be successful before I think about women and it's true that you need enough energy and time to be successful so I didn't want anything weighing me down even though she was trying to support me but it was becoming obsessive.