It's been a long time here. A very long time at that. I would say life has been the same way, not much as change since the last time we spoke. But still very much pursuing my goals taking it one step at a time. The fear of getting infected seems to have left me as i did it a work with a colleague and didn't use protective measures, but i didn't use it because it wasn't our first time and she seemed like a decent lady. I have had one interview with State and it went well. Now I have another interview with federal aro hospital, I hope God helps me. But I have to prepare very well for it. Ministry work seems to me like work for lazy people, just sitting in an office, I don't think that's the kind of life I want, either teaching. I want to be travelling around the world making friends, meeting new people, exploring the world. Maybe I should start a YouTube channel like Shank. But ministry work can also help your political life. I have seen myself in the helms of government running the affairs of this country. But if it would happen God would make it happen if not Gods will be done. Mentally am getting better and believing in myself more and more. Even though my mind is still unstable, I know clarity of thought is coming, I can feel it. About my relationship, it's more like am up and down but I know by the time I leave and my mind leaves, am done and out for good. The sex with her is always good. I stopped masturbating but the temptation keeps coming but God keeps showing himself real and giving me strength to overcome, I hoped that I passed the test because that was when i got the instrument to be using in forex. While I could reason that I lost the instrument for my confidence by having sex with a lady but God gave me another instrument in my mind this time. I could remember the man of God that came to me and told me to stop masturbating I didn't stop it till 2 years after, he prophesied many good things in my life like me being the head and not the tail, I haven't forgotten.